I Love A Boy With A Girlfriend?

Not a question, just me needing to vent to someone. But I have loved him for six years. Seriously. And I know he will never love me ,but I always just have a glimmer of hope. And I hate feeling this way. We have numerously had those awkward stares that I believe he began but maybe I began them to make myself seem so... obsessed. And I can't talk to my friend 'cause she is wrapped in her long distance love. And even when she wasnt it is hard for her to get out of the topic of herself, even when you add you commentary. I just dont want to feel this way anymore, and it doesnt help that we go to the same school. I am so thankful his girlfriend attends a different school. But, I think my friends make up things to make me feel better like, "he thinks your pretty!" or "he used to like you!" Lies, liars. Don't give me false hope. And we sit so close in classes and I find myself reaching out to touch him and I dream about him sometimes. My dreams of him are so amazing. Dreams are my refuge from my sad reality that ALL the boys I liked never like me back. Dreams are my haven.